59 days ago, I resolved to write a blog entry every day. One a day. Like a writing vitamin.
In the 59 days since I publicly declared this seemingly insurmountable project I’ve felt a myriad of emotions: hope, because I was daring to believe that I’d start something that I intended to finish; fear, because I didn’t know if I had the will to see this through as I am known to never finish my writing projects; panic, because there were days when I would stare at a blinking cursor for ages, with my hands poised over the keyboard, and inspiration would refuse to come and visit; frustration, because there were days when inspiration was there, I wanted to write, but the words would simply not come; pride, when I would reread my entries and I would feel amazed that I wrote what I did; and in this early stage, a sense of achievement, because I usually stop working on my New Year’s resolution by the end of January; and a sense of purpose, because I know that this writing exercise will allow me to prepare myself to realise a dream that I’ve always had, to write a book. It might never be published, but I will write my book!
My mind feels more active now, because I’m forever squirrelling away ideas, saving notes about what to write about. I’ve become a better observer of my surroundings, I’ve become a people-watcher. I’ve been given the opportunity to appreciate how blessed I am, because when I write, I look back on my life, my childhood and my opportunities. I am learning to express myself more. I am discovering layers about myself that I had never really known were there. I have learned to be more introspective and to think before I write and it translates to me being more careful about what I say, to think before I speak. I have learned to appreciate the power of words, to respect the intractability of words that you release into the cosmos–what you send out, spoken or written can never be taken back. It will always be part of your environment. I have learned to value my nationality and my country. I have begun to realise that because I am able to translate my thoughts and emotions into words, I have to power to change my world.
I am thankful for the people who thought of the Daily Post challenge. Your idea made all the difference!